Conquering ANXIETY
I've been debating myself for quiet some time on whether or not to even post this on social media, then I thought "fuck it , do you know what maybe it might help and encourage other people to speak up about experiences, emotions, struggles with depression. Furthermore this may encourage others to no longer feel ashamed or embarrassed and reach out for help". Especially with the amount of people suffering in the silence because of Depression and Anxiety. More deaths from depression and suicide than road traffic accidents and yet there is more awareness safety campaigns for road safety than depression.
For me personally the best thing that I have ever done was to speak out and get the help that I needed. I've tried below as best i can to some up some of the feelings and thoughts that have experienced in relation to depression and the stigma attached to mental illness in general within the society. One of the things that I've learned personally is that "It's OK not to be OK" don't be afraid to confide in a friend, neighbor or family member someone who you feel comfortable speaking with, you don't have to keep your thought and feeling to yourself and keep everything building up inside of your mind.
The worst part is having anxiety paired with crippling depression. You get the worst of both disorders. The mind games, the nervous habits, the perfectionism but also depression sneaks in with the lost of interest in things you love, and the inability to get out in bed even when the anxiety gives you so much energy and you just want to work it off but you are stuck laying in a fetal position just wishing you are normal. That you could just be good at something. The worst part is the misunderstanding, when people don't notice that a disorder is doing that to you so they call you lazy. Or when people do know about your disorder but think you are "overacting" or making it up. Not all people that I met could really understand me.. They really don't have any idea how hard it is to live with this. I wish I could explain it in words, but i just can't. I wonder if anyone will ever get it. It's so hard trying to hide my anxiety, it's exhausting :(
For me personally the best thing that I have ever done was to speak out and get the help that I needed. I've tried below as best i can to some up some of the feelings and thoughts that have experienced in relation to depression and the stigma attached to mental illness in general within the society. One of the things that I've learned personally is that "It's OK not to be OK" don't be afraid to confide in a friend, neighbor or family member someone who you feel comfortable speaking with, you don't have to keep your thought and feeling to yourself and keep everything building up inside of your mind.
The worst part is having anxiety paired with crippling depression. You get the worst of both disorders. The mind games, the nervous habits, the perfectionism but also depression sneaks in with the lost of interest in things you love, and the inability to get out in bed even when the anxiety gives you so much energy and you just want to work it off but you are stuck laying in a fetal position just wishing you are normal. That you could just be good at something. The worst part is the misunderstanding, when people don't notice that a disorder is doing that to you so they call you lazy. Or when people do know about your disorder but think you are "overacting" or making it up. Not all people that I met could really understand me.. They really don't have any idea how hard it is to live with this. I wish I could explain it in words, but i just can't. I wonder if anyone will ever get it. It's so hard trying to hide my anxiety, it's exhausting :(
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