“Life, Love and a Little Adventures”

I feel as if I'm disappearing a little more each day. I'm so angry and confused inside that I'm afraid of myself. I feel so alone. I feel as if I'm drowning, fading faster and faster into the night with each passing day. Lately, I'm finding it harder to remember what I've done from one day to the next. I feel so afraid and alone.  All my life is crumbling, and I'm vulnerable and so tired. What if I can't find my way out of all this pain? The pain washes over me in great waves. I want to reach out to someone, but I don't know how or who, or if I even can. My pride still lingers, though. I feel as if my soul is dying. My will to live is being tested.  And day after day, the pain won't go away. I honestly don't know how much more I can take. I'm not suicidal, but I'm scared, embarrassed, and I've isolated myself from the immediate world. I just yearn to escape from my pain. I don't know how else to do it. I...

Have you ever felt scared — not because of what’s outside, but because you start doubting yourself? Wondering if you’re truly the right one for someone you love? Questioning if you’re mature enough to face life’s challenges? I’ve been there too. So many times. I once dreamed of a man who seemed perfect to me. He asked if I was mature enough to change my life — to grow, to evolve. At first, I confidently said “Yes.” But the more I thought about it, the more confused I became. Am I really mature? Maturity isn’t something that comes easily. It’s a lifelong process, often filled with struggle and doubt. Everyone begins life with flaws and imperfections. None of us are born perfect. Our character develops over time, shaped by our past experiences, environment, and relationships. That’s why I believe no one should judge another’s maturity — because we are all works in progress. Everything in life is change. For me, becoming mature starts with my relationship with God and others. A book t...

I've been debating myself for quiet some time on whether or not to even post this on  social media, then I thought "fuck it , do you know what maybe it might help and encourage other people to speak up about experiences, emotions, struggles with depression. Furthermore this may encourage others to no longer feel ashamed or embarrassed and reach out for help". Especially with the amount of people suffering in the silence because of Depression and Anxiety. More deaths from depression and suicide than road traffic accidents and yet there is more awareness safety campaigns for road safety than depression.   For me personally the best thing that I have ever done was to speak out and get the help that I needed. I've tried below as best i can to some up some of the feelings and thoughts that have experienced in relation to depression and the stigma attached to mental illness in general within the society. One of the things that I've learned personally is that "It...